My hands have flown across this keyboard a million times in the past. I have made everyone laugh and made a lot of people mad. I have posted a few things to show you I am human and give you a window into me. I have tried to lighten the mood and make you all feel good. The irony is that as much as people asked for that…they didnt read. It didnt interest them so much. If I am happy or doing the number of reads drop dramatically. Such a joke. You want a little anger to come from me. You want your outlet and your voice. The bad thing is that most of you that serve as my little lab rats or examples are so oblivious to it that its unnerving. You still think that it cant be you. You are so different or so part of a majority that its all ok . Well fuck all of you.
Today I listened to the disillusion of a hopeless rambler.
I saw someone choose pain over hope and continue the self destructive cycle of bullshit because they just dont like themselves.
I saw a couple snoop and investigate each other to the point they tried to break up over nothing.
I also listen to another young lady tell a tale of a terrible date.
Wow…really? Do we have to keep all this shit up?
I cant lose hope in love because I recognize the real meaning. This vision inside my head seems so much more reasonable. The look on your face always looks so disturbed. You cant for a second leave these comfort zones. You cant for a second believe in someone else. Its just a machine that cycles over correction and it makes me sick.
The single moms are the the ones that have spent so much time alone that they have constructed an odd parallel reality where prince charming will come along and give them the life lived in most movies and dollar store novels. No regard to the fact that they are doing nothing to attract that prince charming. Heres a hint dipshit…Wishing dont work and magic doesnt exist. Work for what you want. You want a good guy earn it. Thats the way it is for guys that care enough not to have a half ass chick.
Percentage of Children in Single Parent Homes: 1970-2005 |
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The percentage of children of all races living in single parent homes has been steadily increasing since 1970.
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Sorry to offend those of you that are my friends but someone had to say it. Unless you have you shit together then what I just said wont hurt a bit.
The other girls so desperately hung up on the ex with no real ties to him…oh man. Vomit. They just cant disconnect. He was the best they were going to do…hes the validation they needed because daddy or someone didnt love them enough. Again, waiting on the fairy tale. Well…might as well slit those wrists now precious…its not going to happen and you will forever attract abusive sick drunks that hate you almost as much as they hate themselves.
To the couples that are together that cant seem to admit that shit is just done or not going to work…shut the fuck up. Fuck I hate you the most. Like the two fucks I talked to tonight. The dont trust each other so much that they have to log onto one anothers email and myspace accounts to check up. WOW. Is that the person you want? Or are you such a piece of shit that you cant do any better than to find the only other person on the planet that hates themselves as much as you hate yourself. I even have this conversation saved to my computer and as soon as I can edit all the names I’ll be posting it. Its truly pathetic. When its one person I have some sympathy because this poor soul is alone in the world and naturally makes up false truths and such. But when two people kid themselves together its truly sickening. You need your loathing of one another to exist and everyone around you pays for it. For those of you that have kids. You are the worst. Your daughters will be whores and drug addicts and your sons will be criminals and rapists. Its your fault. Find some abortion pamphlets. Fuck you.
I want to be so optimistic and quit with the cynicism but it wont happen. Everyone continues to disappoint.
I could very well become the person that closes my eyes and never bring up these questions again. I can pretend in large communities that this sadness and depravity doesnt exist in modern world America. This Southern Baptist Christian culture is here to save me. But its all bullshit. Its a distracting hypnosis we are all under to justify our terrible behavior and make excuses for what we do. We believe we are forgiven for damages that last a lifetime. I will never be like you. I wont do that with you.
If you have any life left in you do something with it.
Everything anyone has is nothing. You validate yourself with bullshit and live so primitive its ugly. You go with your biological programming like fucking animals, but try to disguise it eloquently with your phony lifestyles and painted on happiness.
It really is no wonder that everyone hates America. How we must look like clowns to the rest of the world.
I want you to count these sheep tomorrow night before you sleep…
Youre indifference is damaging this whole planet. You are the reason your kids are bad.
The dream is dead.
We are all soldiers in a silent war against ourselves. We are the murderers and causalities.
Hide yourselves from all the pain, truth, and choice…
Step away from the door outside…
Go back to sleep.
Suicide stats…http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/126271.php
STD stats…http://www.cdc.gov/std/stats/
Amount of government money spent on depression issues per TOP 10
| # 1 | New York: | $3,331,688,218.00 | |
| # 2 | California: | $3,147,792,993.00 | |
| # 3 | Pennsylvania: | $1,859,763,966.00 | |
| # 4 | Michigan: | $895,065,635.00 | |
| # 5 | Texas: | $796,974,433.00 | |
| # 6 | Illinois: | $789,861,370.00 | |
| # 7 | New Jersey: | $763,057,140.00 | |
| # 8 | Ohio: | $692,287,984.00 | |
| # 9 | Massachusetts: | $682,218,519.00 | |
| # 10 | Maryland: | $677,806,345.00 |
Check my math…http://www.statemaster.com/graph/hea_tot_sta_exp-health-total-state-expenditures-mental
Go back to sleep.